I've avoided letting you all know in hope things would change and everything would be okay. However, if there's anything I've learnt from being hurt in the past; it's choosing the right time to walk away.
Me and Andrew decided to go our separate ways a few weeks ago. If something isn't allowing you to grow as a person anymore, it's time to face your fears of being alone and walk away in order to find happiness. Time is the best healer as they say and I respected that. I wasn't the one who initially walked away as it seemed like I was the only one fighting towards the end. I just hoped things would change. I have been so happy this year and I will never forget the memories I have with him but that's all they are; just memories which made me incredibly happy at the time.
It's a really weird thing not seeing someone in the evenings, not spending lazy days with someone, not going for food and not cuddling up to someone at night. I don't have anyone to laugh at the tv with, tickle or share an ice-cream with. We had hard times like any other couple but we had some of the best times aswell. I wish I could thank him for helping me to have faith in another guy again.
It's now October; four weeks away from being our one year anniversary sadly. I will happily admit with no embarrassment that I fell head over heels very quickly with Andrew. I never imagined I would be with him (EVER).. especially as I had known him a couple of years but never really spoke to him. It went from a hi, to a full blown conversation to a relationship and I am grateful for that.
If there's anything I've learnt from the time I spent with him; it's to take risks, ignore outsiders and fight for what you want. It's really sad things didn't work out between us but I guess we all go through this at one point (or a few!) times in our lives and we eventually learn to let go.
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