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28/12/2011

When somebody walks out of your life who you love dearly, your heart feels like it's being ripped into a million pieces. It doesn't matter how hard you try to win someone back into your life, it's their choice whether they want to take that step back into it. I have never felt so empty and lost and angry with myself. I have tried to roll over in my duvet and forget about everything but even that doesn't seem to help. I wish I could say everything's okay but I know this is completely different and I've lost everything. I just wish you would comply with the wishes I grant but they never seem to last. I will always love you even on days like today when you hate me more than any other person. I will always stick by you, maybe not physically but in my head we will always be two. You are the best thing to have ever walked in my life. I am sorry.

20 comments

  1. Hope you are okay sweetie xxx

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  2. big cuddles for you xo

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  3. Oh Ashleigh. Big hugs to you lady. I hope you're OK.x

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  4. You don't know me, but I always love reading your blog and I really hope you are okay. Remember everything happens for a reason and try to smile into the New Year x

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  5. hey hun i hope you're okay, if you ever read to talk to anyone :) hope the new year is good to you babe xo

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  6. sending you love and hugs xxx

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  7. hope you're okay sweet :( x

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  8. ♥ Hope you're okay Ashleigh, sending you lots of hugs and foodie goodness. x

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  9. hope you're okay Ashleigh - everything happens for a reason and no matter how bad you may feel, you should view the new year as a fresh start! lots of love xoxo

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  10. I hope you are ok dollface. Hopefully the new year will bring you some more luck xx

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  11. I hope you're okay Ashleigh :( x

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  12. I hope you're okay hunni. It really is the worst thing in the whole world, losing somebody you love. Look to the future.. new year, fresh start x

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  13. Hope you are okay lovely!
    Sending you lots of hugs :)
    Charlie, xoxo.

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  14. :( This post has made me so sad, the most heartfelt thing I've ever seen. I hope everything works out for you. You can see my how many comments you have that there's plenty of us out there that care for you! Keep your chin up. xxx

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  15. I know it's easy for me to say everything will be okay, but I honestly hope you hold onto that and believe it, because it really will. As long as you know you always gave it your all then that should be more than good enough for anyone and if it's not at least you always knew you tried your hardest.
    Lots of love is being sent your way, sweetie. Try and keep your chin up and look to the future, because I'm sure as hell it will be a successful future! xx

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  16. Hope you are OK lover, you know I am only an email away! <3

    Maria xxx

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  17. annabelle vickery29/12/11

    ashleigh this is so strange, if this is about breaking up i have literally just been left myself, and i understand how you feel. im so sorry, we don't know each other at all, but i've been following you on tumblr and then on here for a long time and know how much you love him, i can't say i know exactly how you feel but i can totally understand and see how much you are probably hurting. and probably blaming yourself too, and wondering if you can turn back time and change things and thinking how you can change his mind. i'm so sorry ashleigh, i really hope you'll be ok <3

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  18. I know it seems stupid, but time is the best healer. He'll come around! He loves you a lot, I'm sure of it! Ashleigh, your such a lovely person and I hope you're ok!

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  19. god, this makes me want to cry! hope you are doing ok now sweets xxx

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